Twin Thoughts.

Keep it secret.. Keep it safe.

I miss being a little kid.


Would it feel like flying before you hit rock bottom?


Fun should be a college major.


How do you know when to make it happen?

I wish I was superman.

My Lighthouse.

I don't even know what I'm doing anymore.
It all just feels like a big mess.
Everything always just seems so strained, and awkward for me.
I never know what to do or say, it just seems like all I can do is sit there and stutter while I watch people go out and live their lives, and make things happen.
I want to be that person.
Those persons.
I want to make it happen.
Anything and everything.
And I want it to just.. Flow.
I want to be able to say that I'm satisfied..
And really mean it, to the bottom of my heart.
And even then, after i say all of this, and I just sit here and complain about it, I don't know how, or what to do to change it.
I try and keep myself busy with little things like writing, or drawing, but nothing gives me satisfaction.
It doesn't fill me, you know?
I want something that I can just run to, and be able to let go.
Be free.
And I'll just run to it, and take that deep breath, and it'll feel so good.
Like a fresh sea breeze, on a cool spring day.
My lighthouse.
I sure hope it comes to me soon.
I'll keep digging until I find something.
And I'll make it real.
No matter what it takes.

Thesbian!

Was awesome.
Most fun I've had since...
I don't know how long.
The workshops were awesome.
I learned so much from them.
The people were so nice and friendly.
Honestly, these people are some of the coolest that I've met in a long time.
I really had fun!
Not the 'Ohh, I'm so excited, cause I'm gonna get drunk, and go party' kind, just being with other people, and having fun being together.
I was really sad to have to leave, but I'm definitely gonna go again next year. (:

Mitchell Davis!

That's pretty much whatsup.
This kid is boss.
That's right.
He is bomb.com fo shore. ;)

Rollercoaster.

Up and down.
Up and down.
Up and down.

That's pretty much how it goes.

I'll feel really good, and have a great day, and it'll be like i'm on top of the world,
And then the next day i'll feel like laying in my bed all day long, and just bawling.
I have no idea why..
It's like i'm on a rollercoaster, and i'll get to the top for a few seconds, and then it'll all rush down and feel as if it was never there in the first place.
Now, don't get me wrong..
I'm not the type of person that will walk around whining about how awful my life is, and how much i hate the world.
Nahh.
It just really eats at my insides, especially since i can't figure out why i'm feeling like this.
It's like there's a big hole inside me, and i can't figure out how to fill it out.
And some days, it'll be gone, and others, it seems like it'll never go away.
And i think that i can get rid of it in foolish, and immature ways..
But it's there, still the same.


Wake up, princess.
And smell the fresh air around you.

Today!

Has been one of those really 'feel good' days for me. :)
It feels like when you're a little kid, and you wake up on christmas and there is a nice big stack of presents waiting for you under the christmas tree, and those cookies that you made, and that big jar of milk you poured are all gone, and there's a nice thank you note lying on top of the empty plate.
Or like that feeling you get after a long day of school, and you just step outside, and let the wind blow through your hair, and you just get this big rush of emotion, and excitement flowing through you.
And you feel like you couldn't feel any better than this.
It's like you're floating on a cloud.
And no one,
And nothing,
Could possibly bring you down.
It's the greatest feeling in the world.

It makes me wonder...

Today, I really got to thinking.
What happens after we die?
Is there just.. Nothing?
Do we absolutely just cease to exist?
My mind can't really process that thought, that everything will all just be over.
There's got to be something out there, right?
One of the reasons my mind has such difficulty with this is because my dad died a little under two years ago, and it's really hard to think that i'll never get to see him again, you know?
I want to be able to know for sure.
But nothings for sure.
And it probably won't ever be.
I don't know how to find out.
I can only hope.

10 Things.

10 things you wish you could say to ten different people right now:
1) I sure wish you would make up your mind.
2) I'm always here, if only you would let me in.
3) Did you actually mean it?
4) Wanna go to winter formal? (:
5) I sure miss you. Every day.
6) When will you grow up?
7) I really wish we could learn to get along.
8) Please, just stop talking to me. It's pretty much just too awkward now.
9) I wish you would call more. I miss talking.
10) You make my day.

9 Things people probably don’t know about you:
1) I wish my name was Adrianne.
2) Grapefruit juice is my favorite to drink.
3) I wish i lived in Austin, Texas.
4) My middle name is Prestwich.
5) I miss the good times.
6) I'm not very satisfied with myself; i'm always looking for improvement.
7) I love the thunder and lightning.
8) Nature constantly amazes me.
9) I put periods after almost everything i type or text.

8 ways to win your heart:
1) Make my day.
2) Don't be an asshole.
3) Make me laugh.
4) Dance with me.
5) Take me places and just talk with me.
6) Make me feel important.
7) Stay with me when i'm sick or sad.
8) Show me you really care.

7 awesome movies:
1) The Fall.
2) Donnie Darko.
3) Silent Hill.
4) The Notebook.
5) Napolean Dynamite.
6) Amadaeus.
7) King Arthur.

6 things you do before you fall asleep:
1) Shower.
2) Take off my makeup/wash my face.
3) Put in a movie.
4) Set my alarm.
5) Do my homework.
6) Charge my phone/iPod/camera.

5 people who mean a lot: (no order)
1) James.
2) Rachel.
3) Jude.
4) Cody.
5) Kalen.

4 things you don’t like:
1) Being sick.
2) Missing people.
3) Endings.
4) Not sleeping.

3 things you like:
1) Food!
2) Sleep.
3) Friends.

2 things you want to do before you die:
1) Become a counselor.
2) Travel the world.

1 confession:
1) I'm tired of fighting.
Seriously, how hard is it to have complete peace?
Pretty damn hard.

My first blog(:

Soo...
I just started a blog, and i'm pretty excited about it.
I have a lot of things i want to write about, i just dont know where to start.
Well, first of all, i'm Liz.
I'm a freshman at Show Low High School.
I just moved from Orem, Utah about 4 months ago.
I've found that the change has been nice, actually.
There are a lot of things i miss about Utah, but it's been good to have a fresh start.
It's really nice up here, cause it's a small town, and there are alot of beautiful places near by where you can just sit and think, you know?
Being able to do that is nice, cause where i used to live it was mostly big city.
But i love the big city, don't get me wrong.
All the lights and sounds, the rushing cars, and the life.
All beautiful in completely different ways.

Well, thats pretty much all i got for now.
Not sure what else to say..
So, i'll just leave it at this.
(: