Coexist.

I've been thinking a lot lately.
Not sure if it's a good thing or not,
But I've been contemplating a lot of things that are going on in my life right now.
And I've really thought mostly about..
Ehh, what exactly I need, and what I don't, if that makes sense?
Not exactly sure how to put this down.

I'm just tired of trying so hard with things that are unnecessary, you know?
Like with certain friends, or other things like that.
Cause, I'll go out of my way to be a really good friend to a person, and try really hard to make them feel good, but then it kind ends up just being unnecessary, if you catch my drift.
I would rather just keep two, maybe three people around me close, and kinda just drift from everyone else.
Just keep exactly what I need, and let everything else happen as it will.
It might be lonelier, but it would be easier.

I don't know if this is a selfish thing to do though..
Just kinda letting everything go, so I can have an easier time?
And don't get me wrong, there are a lot of people that I care about alot.
I just.. ehh, I don't know.
Part of this is probably cause I move around quite a lot, and everywhere I go, the people that I've attached myself to have to be left behind, and that's one of the hardest things for me.
I hate goodbyes.
And I know that I'll probably be moving again in the next year, or less.
And if I distance myself from everyone now, it'll just be easier in the long run.

But I don't know.
It's probably a selfish thing to do.
I'm just thinking a lot.
And I probably don't mean most of this, and will change my mind about it sooner or later.
I'm just kinda worn out, you know?

I just want to coexist.
There isn't really any other way I can think of putting it.
Just simply exist.
And have everyone else do the same around me.